ive something in life that makes me want to live now

 even in the nearing shores of winter

theres a spark ive made with someone

that one moment a frw days ago, now puts me here

that now, makes me want to live

now all times that i wake up, those groggy low mornings, overidden by

im still wuestioning whether to commit before its too deep into it

i dont know

i was feeling quite suicidal before but now i feel less but still, in a different form, feeling this novelty, bliss even, makes me want to die to end my life in a pleasant state. its confusing

i dont want to get too far into it where i decide to do it and create such a painful hurt . i really dont

ahh yess

OLIVER TATE YESYESYEYSYEYSYES

i need to consume more coming of age romance fictional media