i dont really know when, but suicidal ideation has been on my mind for some time. and, the thing is, it never seems to leave for long, it always follows me everywhere i go. its either that its in the back of my mind lingering around, or, it bothers me for days on end.
it really hurts. i just want to stop thinking about it.
the idea of disappearing. vanishing. escaping the chains of consciousness and self awareness. erasing myself. submitting myself to the hands of death.
no more needing to wake up ever again. no need to maintain the hideous flesh sack the material world gave me, no possibility of harming my body out of self loathe, no more overwhelming emotions, no more social anxiety, no more pain.
no more.
nothing.
an indescribable being of not existing.
yet i still am here.
.png)
No comments:
Post a Comment