Sunday, 11 January 2026

stuck in this lifestyle

 im stuck in this lifestyle yet again, for a month too. what a misuse of this massive school break, 3 weeks left. 

i have a terrible lifestyle. it makes me feel terrible. its already pretty self destructive and being aware of how awful and self destructive it is, it provokes me to indulge in more self destructiveness. horrible. no wonder i never like waking up. its me! i can change this and i dont as its too much effort! no change! full capability! no action! how insufferable are you me? 

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