i dont want there to be a tommorow

my mind has been brought back to a memory back in 7th year from my music teacher.

the class was on a song, and she, the teacher, talked about the lyrics of the song

in particular, something along the lines of "... and there will always be a tommorw"

she remarked how positive and important the meaning of that is.

i dont dont feel so.

that there will always be a tommorow.

i dont view it as positive. 

knowing once i fall to sleep, theres another tommorow, to wake up to

to wake up back to this state of being

i just dont want tommorow. i want there not be a ever a tommorow anymore