Wednesday, 20 May 2026

still alive still alive

 last year, i wanted it living to stop.

i expected. but ofcourse im still here because i didnt even know what id use

so

here i am

im still here

its rotting

its just gotten much worse

and im like burying it even heavier and deepr now. 


i feel even more behind

more lost

more hopeless

more low

more unfulfilled 

more self loatheful

more empty

more suffocation


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