undesirable

i dont feel desirable.

i dont feel i have the qualities to be with romantic partner.

but i want that empty feeling to go away

am i doing myself no good by desiring romantic relationship as it will just fuel the unpleasant feelings and get me nowhere as im nowhere at the state for one and dont deserve one. 

the more you obsess with want for it, the more harm you are doing to yourself.

even so, does that change the undesirable i feel? 

lifelong romantically alone

no of 'that' person who is one of the centres of your life. your their supporter and their you supporter. that person to confide into. that person that gets you. that healer. that just as flawed as you are, coming together, merging, regardless. 

i dont know