i want to disappear

disappear.

glide away.

die. 

cease existence.

be not.

i dont want to hurt anyone to disappear. except thats not how it all works.

i will hurt people if i die.

i dont want that.

 

dying physically hurts.

i dont it so much pain.

 

why? why consciousness?

why?

 

die.

me. die.

thats what i want.

 

day in day out.

distract myself ill let myself.

nevertheless its always there.

i always want to disappear.

but disappearing isnt easy.

  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(shinji & asuka dance gif to cheer up :}