i really wouldnt mind

if i had an option, say, to summon a literal button infront of me right now, that would grant me to just vanish from existence. never existed. not as if i suddenly vanished and everyone else would wonder where i went. just, never have of existed/born. i would certainly press it. but, would i really? i would. but knowing me, id postpone it, and i dont know how long. weeks, months, years. maybe i wouldnt even. though im a sure i would. i dont have to wake up ever again. no more tommorow. no more pain. no more. no more consciousness. nothing. no more feeling. no more thinking. 

i dream of this so, so , so so so so, so much. 

press a button and i have to be alive anymore.