Sunday, 12 April 2026

daydreaming

i daydream when i dont feel satisfied with myself

i daydream when i dont like this world

i daydream when i want to escape reality

i daydream something i dont have that i deeply want

i daydream when i feel lonely

i daydream when im in a low wave again 

i daydream when i dont want to be alive


i daydream to feel some form of control. - that, i have realised


daydreaming won't change anything

daydreaming only pulls me down more

daydreaming will only make me feel more suicidal 

daydreaming is just another temporarily gratifying distraction



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