keep voluntarily missing more and more

 everyday that goes past

i miss out on more discvoeries and progress

more and more

yet i still sit in my room, behind my screens

dont feel alive

keep survivng

all the events really active now, how do i discvoer them and be apart of them?

i want to feel apart of something, feel alive.

still young

i want to get into it earlier

now

but i cant seem to

i cant push myself

i feel so stuck

so pinned down in this ditch