low.

i feel at a low.

another one.

just this ones lower than, previous ones. 

im feeling really close to not being alive soon.

,,mm..

feeling not well. this consistent daily feelings for the past, i dont know, month or weeks

im keeping it in when im in public, outside, in school, with friends. which, is, good i think, being outside and around people, and people i can enjoy company and interacting with does atleast not make me sink too deep.

i need someone to spill out and feel deeply connected with.

lonely, cant not mention this annoying pain. 

fill in that biggest gap in me. small gaps hurt too. 

my life is very, aimless now.

im feeling more behind day by day.

this suffocating and drowning feeling inflates and simmers down and inflates again. 

i want to feel like im breathing. feel alive.

would a romantic partner offer that? i want to feel touching, moving, emotional moments. feel feelings i want to feel. feel a profound feeling of connection.

am i too afraid to initiate these experiences?

i feel so.

its frustrating. it makes me feel stuck.

im already feeling stuck enough.