random thought

many people want to be different by being more self aware than everyone else.

there are plenty of people just as self aware as them. they believe what they think is different. 

but plenty think the exact same things as them.

they want to feel different because of their survival instinct to feel more valuable and important from feeling special and different from others.

despite that, that person might feel lonely, and being different from otheres makes you lonely.

even though they very well are just the same as so many are.

they think they're more self aware, more intelligent than others to feel different to feel important, that everyone else are mindless surviving living blobs, when, in reality, they're are people who are just as the latters perceived 'self aware, intelligent and different' than others.