Friday, 8 May 2026

too afraid to express myself outwards

 things i keep inside, that i want to externalise, no have an outlet for

words to people, my appearance, creations i want to create

yet i dont

so, ive been thinking, if im just too afraid to, it wouldnt be of much concern for the upcoming years of living, as because of my plan, i wont have to, since i wont be alive for long to have to be bothered by feeling so stuck from that fear. 

but still, if i live on, it would feel terrible, and i have to face it, and confront it

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